thinking only of one self.
Sunday, December 8 @ 23:06
Sometimes, I really detest myself for being selfish. It's like I know what I should do but I know I don't want to. I need to do things willingly and bring back my happy-go-lucky self. I feel so terrible right now. All I need right now is a huge hug, embrace me and someone to tell me it's okay. It's okay to feel like this. It's okay to be selfish. It's okay to think for yourself. It's okay to want things to go your way. It's okay to say what you want without having the guilt lingering your soul. It's okay. And the fact that I expect people to know what I feel is totally wrong of me. Who do you think these people are? Some freaking psychic? NO. I really should let that tattooed in my head. Let it out. Pour out your thoughts. This time, I can blame it on my hormones. But what if it happens on a normal day? Who or what should it put the blame to? I'm afraid that the day will come. The day that will just make you lose control of my doings and put a stop to it. Forever.
I'm sorry I can't tell this piece of my feelings to you directly. I simply can't. It's fucking embarrassing. To know this part of me exist. Such a loser. Such selfish loser.
Such algid cold weather, too cold for such intensity. Goodnight, I really love you
