Saturday, November 13 @ 14:30
I'm better.
a far cry from.
Friday, November 12 @ 17:21
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There's never a day where I don't feel like this. What sort of feelings? Feelings. A presentiment on the conscious or unconscious state of mind, a sentiment of a solid which could appear for fondness or otherwise. I wish I can this feelings whereby you are in the cloud seven, always smiling about the ridiculous stuffs that people don't find funny, going home in the train turning on your ipod and listening to sweet words lyrics that matches you happy thoughts, you know. Right now, I'm feeling something, and its not that. If you could just try. I thought November this year would be something I look forward to. And just so you know, I'm still feeling pathetic - third-rate, inferior, and worthless. It's different all for the wrong reason.
Hey you are only a few centimeters away from me but I'm sorry I don't have the courage to tell you straight. I know no matter what I tried and what you did, I still love you. And some of you might know, my 19th is nearing. All I want is just you saying that you still do, love me, hug me, kiss me.
Am I different, or you are just not the same anymore?
karma's a bitch.
Tuesday, November 9 @ 16:50
I don't need anyone to understand, so long you do. I don't need anyone to appreciate me, still, so long you do. I have no idea if I should still believe in karma - cause deep down I still do. I somehow knew this would happen. But I'm still holding on. Having to be right in front of you and still missing you at the same times is just too pathetic. What sins have I done to be having this feeling for almost everyday. And what if one day, maybe just one day I just cannot hold on anymore? I'm still holding on to you, cause I know, I want to be there when you need me. And once again, do I still think you need me anymore? I won't be long before gone. I'm sure things are just gonna go great for you and I should just make do with it. I still love you though. Do you?
Shove up words and give actions instead please. I'm begging you. I'm exhausted and my tears are all dried up.