Tuesday, June 29 @ 00:02
The erected sol kissed me good morning. I am lethargic, still. Lectures and tutorials is, beyond any doubt, going to be a bummer. Only the first day and all the clouds began to gather in my mind creating the dark fog on the outer layer of my wonderful brain. It refuses to let anything in. Best of luck.
Fuck presentation.
butterflies and hurricanes.
Saturday, June 26 @ 14:15
Needless to say, I bunked in on the couch anon, a tardy interlude. But, I was happy. I spent one of the most wonderful peppy and perky moments before that with inamorato, the nighttide upon the ol' buttermilk sky. Divulging everything on soul, sense and sanity, I knew him better. He's awesome. And that was the time which reminded me again, why I fall for the boy.
And it's mother's birthday. The best mother. I love you.
anamnesis
Friday, June 25 @ 02:39
Finally, my beau that I have long desired for. Our arms entwined, I won't let go, nuzzled him with the every chance I could grab. It was blastoff. We went to the silver screen, caught Ip Man at Shaw. It wasn't the best cine ordeal though. Perhaps worthier next time, GVmax? Munch on late supper with cab back home. Thanks to my boy. For the fourth day straight, I am going to curl myself on the couch reminiscing the frolics. I am going to have a good night sleep.
So should you. Goodnight souls and creatures.
living the sky with diamonds.
Thursday, June 24 @ 14:25
With another night of crashing on the couch of my living room, I began to ponder about my twilight abundance. The spacious that I have being alone in the pitch dark having the whole arena to myself where all the sounds went to sleep and the breeze started to swim. I am enjoying this. Finally, I get to meet my paramour. I'm trying to be all cool like that but really, I'm just a happy little joyous girl. I hope in the world of Utopia, this stays till the night dawn.
Thank you Juli for the day before today. I need to shrug off everything and laughed it out. We'll dine out again, gorge ourselves with all the nourishment we can grab and talk about how such a nerd and a noob we are. ♥
@ 00:00
Happy Birthday to my dearest brother; Muhammad Romzie.
May all the stars shine upon you and glitters your way through every path of your forever never ending journey.
May the joyous occasion that you had will be a polaroid memory that is unforgettable.
pouring.
Wednesday, June 23 @ 14:38
Just when I said it's sunny back behind my imaginative pours with thunders and lightnings, it happened. Snuggling my blanket at the corner of my room, I can do nothing but to wish for your presence. The only thing that I yearn the most now. I couldn't say it directly to you. Damn these egos. I wished you could hear the voice inside my head. I really want you right now. I'll just keep mum about everything and save the little joy when I see you my boy. Plus, I ditched my campus event; something that I feel is not worth attending for.
My body smells like yours. My hair smells like yours.
thought you knew.
@ 00:23
Graduated High School. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs. Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $150 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Had detention. Skipped school/class. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Fired a gun. Had an online diary blog. Gambled in a casino. Had a yard sale. And a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job.Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Gone to sea world. Voted for a contestant from tv. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse. Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS.Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Had a party while your parents weren’t home. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
the undying optimist.
Tuesday, June 22 @ 23:13
Wrapping myself under the blanket on a very sunny day but it feels as though it's pouring heavily outside with thunders and lightnings. I seemed afraid. But it's not the weather that I blame. Sometimes, being at home for a long time is unsuitable for me. People might not understand. And in this situation, even I don't understand too. Sad. It's the semester break and I don't want to be in the campus anymore. I just don't want it anymore. I need my friends. My real friends. Friends whom I share my joy with and whom I drown my sorrows with. It's really been awhile and it's either one of us cannot make it. I remember those time when I'm facing problems and they were there for me. No, I don't need their advice. I just want them to listen and be there for me. Being able for them to cry hearing my story with me. Alas, I know they care. I know they are somewhere around me. But with my absence, god knows. I'm saying this not that I hate my sp friends. I assure you, I don't. And I'm not saying they're fake. Cause they aren't. It's still hard for me to open up to them and talk about almost everything. You know, the kind of friends you hi and bye with. Yeah, that. It's going to take awhile, it might take a long time, or even so, forever. I got no clue. I just hate it when people thinks that I got so much free time on hand cause I don't. Even so, I'm not always around at home and it pretty much making me feel like going out as fast as I can cause the moment I spend just a day at home resting, everyone makes me feel like I'm the most laziest kid at home. So why do I stay? I wonder. I shan't talk about it. I just need someone to turn to. I'm glad I have my boy. I hope. He assured me and I know he'll be there. But it's the kind of feeling that makes you horrified. What if he's not? How does it feel if you know that you only have that one someone that you could turn to but still feeling afraid that one single thing you do might anger him and he's not there anymore. I don't want to put on a strong front in eyes of everyone anymore. I'm just a weakling. Sagittarius is supposed to be having that undying optimistic attitude. Where has that gone to?
If ♥ do stumble upon this. Thank you for being there for me. You're great and awesome but what am I going to do without you. You are my brolly when it rains, you are my shelter when it shines, you are my bed when I needed rest, you are my pillow when I need a hug. You are my tissue when I cry and just about everything, you are my life. You can't be 24/7 here for me I know, but I just wish every single moment spent with you will be the best moments I'll always cherish. You're the first and forever and a day, my last. I love you boy, so very much.
Monday, June 21 @ 14:56
We families had a Costume Party event over at Mami's place. Initially, I had no plans to dress up. But sudden plan from the others to dressed me up as a ghost, pretty much pontianak. Others became Paris Hilton, Beyonce Knowles, Harry Potter, Chun Li, Ariel the little mermaid, Red Indian and also Pocong. Shoot some pictures and play tons of games. Eventful day. We had lots of gifts too! More pictures on Facebook. But last.
Spiderman. Heh.
Anyway, rushed to work after that to celebrate a little birthday gathering for Marvin. For now, Happy Belated Birthday Marvin Solis Estrada.
Friday, June 18 @ 01:57
With all the love in this world, it's been ages since I've updated this personal space. There's not much add(s) to my life but everything is going according to planned, as I am concerned. It's normal with the shit-happens moment but fulfilling every breath I breathed. My contemporary life is never too dull but it isn't too provocative to be shared, to you at most. Still wondering why I am loitering here, aren't you? Felt like it. Brief summary: Having my two-weeks school break. Doesn't feel like one though. Too busy with work, yes the same work I've been slogging for the past 1 year 5 months. Watching one by one stepping their legs out from the hell and heaven. Best of luck. School's usual. Plus plus projects. And yeah, that, I'm slogging too. It spelled boredom.
I had an awesome time yesterday. I went out with ♥, Marvin S. Estrada and adik Nafis. We had to travel prolly more than the usual 2.4km we did during back in days, just to find Pizza Hut in town which I happened to stumble upon every time I am not going to dine there. Thank you very much. We finally did, after travelling to and fro and still ending up in LP. Yes, Lucky Plaza. Flooded at the basement, terrible. Had to fulfill my crave, I got Lasagna. Orders for garlic bread, Chicken Ole, large Super Supreme, double for Lasagna and dessert. Total bill amount are closed to 100$. Double awesome. We went back to Cathay to catch Karate Kid without adik. The movie is great, hilarious and definitely kind of heartwarming. Trust Marvin to have "hid" the Pocky away from me. I wanted to enjoy that with eyes set on the movie alright. It's done anyway. Marvin is gonna get it. Adik met up with us again to have dinner at KFC and we were all set to go home. At least, they did. I think I made ♥ angry but we are alright now. My awesome boy.
I'm blogging straight after work and I'm totally dead beat. Have to be back in campus at 0900 hours later for project meeting and the whole world is praying that I'll be on time tomorrow. Please. I have to go to sleep soon. Alas, I'll be late. We are going to catch up with one another soon alright? Take care and have a good night, and a very good morning later on.