Wrapping myself under the blanket on a very sunny day but it feels as though it's pouring heavily outside with thunders and lightnings. I seemed afraid. But it's not the weather that I blame. Sometimes, being at home for a long time is unsuitable for me. People might not understand. And in this situation, even I don't understand too. Sad. It's the semester break and I don't want to be in the campus anymore. I just don't want it anymore. I need my friends. My real friends. Friends whom I share my joy with and whom I drown my sorrows with. It's really been awhile and it's either one of us cannot make it. I remember those time when I'm facing problems and they were there for me. No, I don't need their advice. I just want them to listen and be there for me. Being able for them to cry hearing my story with me. Alas, I know they care. I know they are somewhere around me. But with my absence, god knows. I'm saying this not that I hate my sp friends. I assure you, I don't. And I'm not saying they're fake. Cause they aren't. It's still hard for me to open up to them and talk about almost everything. You know, the kind of friends you hi and bye with. Yeah, that. It's going to take awhile, it might take a long time, or even so, forever. I got no clue. I just hate it when people thinks that I got so much free time on hand cause I don't. Even so, I'm not always around at home and it pretty much making me feel like going out as fast as I can cause the moment I spend just a day at home resting, everyone makes me feel like I'm the most laziest kid at home. So why do I stay? I wonder. I shan't talk about it. I just need someone to turn to. I'm glad I have my boy. I hope. He assured me and I know he'll be there. But it's the kind of feeling that makes you horrified. What if he's not? How does it feel if you know that you only have that one someone that you could turn to but still feeling afraid that one single thing you do might anger him and he's not there anymore. I don't want to put on a strong front in eyes of everyone anymore. I'm just a weakling. Sagittarius is supposed to be having that undying optimistic attitude. Where has that gone to?

If ♥ do stumble upon this. Thank you for being there for me. You're great and awesome but what am I going to do without you. You are my brolly when it rains, you are my shelter when it shines, you are my bed when I needed rest, you are my pillow when I need a hug. You are my tissue when I cry and just about everything, you are my life. You can't be 24/7 here for me I know, but I just wish every single moment spent with you will be the best moments I'll always cherish. You're the first and forever and a day, my last. I love you boy, so very much.